If you thought I was an asshole before, you ain't seen nothin yet...

Blech

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 08:50:53 GMT

Looks like this is going to be a quarterly thing. Monica is done. Michele is my lovely lady. She is one of the best things to ever happen to me. Lately has been pretty sketchy. Working a shit ton because the Duke of New York is now in New York for the con. pretty neat gig. Been surprisingly active, i seem to go on cleaning surges, but only on my days off. Not really much to write. hense Blech.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 08:02:09 GMT

I havent updated this thing in a while. It's really cool to go through and read all my old posts. very nostalgic. Well there is a lot to tell so i better get started. I got promoted to the Assistant Manager of The Metro Mega store and it seems to be going well. A little rocky at first, but i think we got everything sorted out. There has been alot of drama lately but it is all stupid shit that wont matter in a month anyway. I started hanging out with monica again because i thought she was interested in me, but right now i am not so sure. I like her alot, but i can't shake this feeling that she's lost interest all ready. We are soo different, but we share the same ideas on alot of subjects, and get along great. Our personalities are pretty similar, but i don't think i am comfortable enough to just be myself fully yet. I just wish i knew one way or the other how she felt about me, so i would know what to do about it all. I really want things to work out, but it is all so confusing. We moved into a new apartment that is absolutely Boss. I need to get frames for my posters so i have somthing to look at while i am doing nothing. thats all i can think of right now. g'night.

Battle Lines

Mon, 15 May 2006 14:14:50 GMT

I think the worst possible thing you could do in life is doubt. I will always regret not doing somthing because i was afraid of one possible outcome. You never know what greatness can come out of somthing untill you try it. You can't put off doing somthing even if it may turn out bad, because eventually that opportunity will dissappear foreverand you will always say what if. If you always try for what you want then down the line you can't say you wished you would have done that. life is too short to put anything off untill tommorow.

So get out there and chase those dreams you crazy kids. And don't forget, jesus loves you, he's just not IN love with you.

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 14:23:06 GMT

Long days, and even longer nights. Can't get it outta my head. Zombies and Girls, and problems with problems. Waking up in a room to find your locked inside. Almost metaphorical. almost. Silent Hill 4 is insane. Big love gets better and better. Need to relax, take a break, figure out where i'm going before i get there. Good advice for any occasion. Wish some people were still here, old school friends from back in the day. Easier times, when all that mattered was fun. Skating till dawn, sleeping till noon, rinse and repeat. Napkin holders from Peter Piper, tightening trucks at the shop down the street, Building sketchy ramps on the drive way, scraped knees and broken boards.

People Suck

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 19:21:45 GMT

isnt it nice to know people are just waiting for you to fuck up.

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 07:54:47 GMT

Good night Moon, good night stars, good night christopher walken.

Emo Kid

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 00:06:30 GMT

My life is spiralling downward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance and suffocate me dry concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like; Stab my heart because i love you and, rip apart my soul, and of course, stabby mcstab stab. And it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing, like that guy from that band can do. my life is just a black abyss, it's soo dark, and its suffocating me, grabbing ahold of me and tightening it's grip. tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans, which look great on me by the way. my parents just don't get me, they think i'm gay.
I don't know diary, sometimes i think your the only one who gets me, you're my best friend.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 07:13:00 GMT

So how many times do you have to pretend somthing is funny, and laugh it off, even if it makes you mad, before you can "Take a joke"? How many times before it changes from ribbing to Disrespecting? How many times do you have to get pissed off, before they realize you don't think it's funny, and that it really isn't somthing they should do? what does it take to make someone realize there are just certain subjects that they shouldn't talk about? Oh yeah, and in case your wondering, No, this isn't what i have been pissed about.

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:42:18 GMT

what is it about george thorogood, that just makes me feel good. I went to zia to try and cheer myself up, and i actually remmebered all the cds i was looking for, and they actually had a few that they didnt a week ago. so i spent some dollars for some good tunes. Grabbed some billy idol greatest hits, GT greatest hits, suicide machines, the millencolin cd i have a burnt copy of but is all scratched, and The Meteors Live. they didnt have batmobile, or an actual Meteors albumn, or a copy of living end, but i don't really expect to find those there. time to clean some shit up, and read some comics.

wow. way to go!

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 05:11:41 GMT

i think i posted this once before, but now alas it must happen again. Way to go man, way to go. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH its almost too good to be true. sometimes life is just too sweet.

2005

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 18:12:58 GMT

well, this year is finally almost over, and bittersweet it is. Alot of crazy shit has happened. Things i am happy for and things i regret. But all i can say is that i am happy to have spent this year with my friends. This next year is going to be hard, but i know that no matter what happends it will all work out in the end, it always does. For as many mopey depressing posts i have made this year, i have made just as many good ones. This is to 2005, for being one of the best (and worst) years of my life, and also to 2006, here we go again.

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 22:20:02 GMT

This place is driving me insane. Accidentally gave my nephew too much sugar, and now i think they are doing construction in the living room. I finished the first season of smallville last night. I'm glad they decided to drop the whole theme of every villain gained their powers from kryptonite somehow. The second half of the first season was especially good. found both the first and second seasons for 20 bucks at wal-mart so i got them both since the copies rob has are both scratched. I'm tired of talking to people who have nothing in common with me. Feining interest for the sake of courtesy. I think i might be a terrible person but it will take further investigation to come to a solid conclusion. i am going to go jump beneath a train now.

Cemetary Sounds

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 23:54:38 GMT

strange couple of days.I got my new phone and it is the coolest thing i've ever gotten. Talked to a few people that i really missed, sat outside smoking and thinking alot about damn near everything. Things that i never had time to think about before, but now all i have is time. Time is a dangerous thing to have when you've got a mind like mine. Had a very akward wake up call this morning, and it reminded me of the thing i probably miss the most back home. five more days of mind numbing boridity (probably not a word, but i like it anyways so fuck off). Why is life so damn akward? Why do things somehow find a way to make you feel like you never should have left home this morning? I've got so many things to do when i get home, i dont know how i am going to find time for all of it.im dreading the open to close shifts that i know i'm going to have, although it will be nice to be back on a schedule. I realized recently that i have quite a few decisions to make soon, and i really wish i didnt, but tough choices are what life is all about, YOU taught me that. I just wish i had some of that hindsight everyone is always talking about, maybe wal-mart carries it, they have just about everything else. Except the kitchen sink of course.

November Thursday

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 00:40:11 GMT

BARF! oh man, i am stuffed like the turkey we slaughtered. WOO. Good food, funny hillbillies and all the beer i could drink. Hell yeah. All in all pretty good day. Still wish i was coming home this weekend, i miss my friends more than i thought i ever would. i am bored out of my mind. i missed new comic book day which really makes me down, but hopefully i will get to go to the real comic shop here tommorow and get some good deals. The other one i went to was an antiques store with a small comic section. They had some new comics, and alot of old back issues, so it wasnt all bad, and the guy gave me less than cover price on the new books and gave me the New X-Men HC for 15 bucks! i still can't wait to be back home.

Where the hell am I?

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 13:38:37 GMT

just woke up here, havent slept since friday night. The plane ride sucked because i had to sit next to weird people, and my dvd player's battery died on the second plane. I read The Watchmen for a really long time, but i only seem to be less than a fourth done with it, but so far so good. I wanna go do something but i dont have a car or a bike or anything like that to do so with, and walking isnt an option because we are really far from anything. There are no girls that i have seen since i got off the plane, and all i have to do is go on the intronet. more update later.

BORED BORED BORED!

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 07:51:45 GMT

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): Girl Pants White Belt
First Screen Name: fnupmychistmas
First Pet: Licorice, small black curly haired dog
First Piercing: left ear
First Crush: Zoe
First CD: The Offspring
First Car: 2003 Ford Ranger
First Love: Me!
First Stuffed Animal: My Clown Teddy, from when i was born

NINE LASTS
Last Alchoholic Beverage: Shots of Beer
Car Ride: hours ago home from mesa
Last Movie Seen: History of Violence
Last Phone Call: John
Last CD Played: Dirt Bike Annie
Last Bubble Bath: HAHAHAHA
Last Time You Cried: when i lost rosebud

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
Have you ever been arrested: not yet anyway
Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
Have you ever been on TV: no
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yes
Have you ever cheated: No
Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: yea
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: yeah

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. underoos
2. Under shirt
3. Tiger Army Shirt
4. eyebrow ring
5. my handsome smile!
6.
7.

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. Got 5 hours sleep
2. went to sleep drunk
3. showered at jeffs house
4. worked at mesa
5. Rocked the Casba
6. smoked a million cigarettes

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Smoking
2. Cool Girls
3. Friends
4. Drinking
5. tales from the crypt

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO
1. Girl Pants
2. Becca
3. My sis
4. Rob

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold.
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: canilla

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Meet a girl i like
2. Fly a plane

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. taking this quiz

one year older, one year wiser

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 04:36:53 GMT

damn im exhausted. Saturday after work pants came over and we went to hooters and made fun of all the trashy people, and ate bad sandwitches. then iva gave me beer for my birthday and i drank it until jeff daniel and brent arrived. I ate some cake and ice cream with a knife because as fiasco exclaimed if i can't do that on my birthday then fuck america (he didnt actually say fuck america, but i know thats what he meant.) Then we headed over to a party way the fuck out in scottsdale. I got to meet most of jeff's karaoke buddies and do beer shots all night. Met his friend alex who makes some of the best drinks i've ever had that contain cranberry juice. Alex told me a bunch about the kind of music she likes, and alot of it is pretty good, girl pants and her would get along great. crazy drunk girls were yelling all night, while the aristocracy smoked out side and conversed about movie stars, sexual experiences, and the effects of drugs on the brain. all in all it was a pretty fuckin good birthday. And i didnt even throw up.

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 20:45:40 GMT

1.What did you do last night?
Slept

2. Who was the last person you called?
The Duke

3. What does the 5th text on your phone say?
@i'm still you're papi!

4. When was the last time you thought about sex?
about a half hour ago, and just now.

5. When was the last time you got hurt?
The duke kicked me in the shins

6. When was the last time you cried?
don't remember

7. When was the last time you lost something?
I lost my switchblade

8. What are you listening to right now?
93.3 shitty guitar rock station

9. Why did your last relationship end?
Trust

10. What bothers you the most about the opposite sex?
They are catty and devious

11. Where & when was the best date you've ever been on?
Havent been on a good date yet. they all pretty much ended with me getting lost on some other side of town, or the girl was boring.

13. Do you date more than one person at once?
Nope.

14. What was the last movie you watched?
haha, street fighter.

15. What was the last t.v show?
Lost

16. What do you want for your b-day?
Tales From the Crypt Season 2

17. What are you doing tonight?
probably sleeping again. or maybe i will get piss drunk cuz i got three days off and a half full bottle of gin just callin my name.

18. When will be the next vacation?
who the hell knows. i dont take vacations

19. How do you feel right now?
tired, hungry.

Dreams

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 07:26:55 GMT

Came home exhausted today per usual. I don't know if it is lack of sleep, or the fact that i havent been eating more than once a day, or probably both. cleaned my room a little then went to sleep at about 9:30. but the weirdest part was the dreams i had. a few cool dreams about girls i like, lol. And then one really fucked up one where me rob and becca went to some show, and i ended up hanging out with some dude that looked like gary bucey but not, and some other guy i cant remember, we ended up walking around this huge movie theater with about 100 different screens, that i always dream about, except that it wasnt showing any movies, so it felt more like a casino, or i guess a comic convention, but i've never been so i wouldnt know. Any way, me and these guys are walking around aimlessly drinking the whole time mind you, and at one point i end up going with the gary bucey one to meet his girlfriend, who turns out to be this really hot rockabilly chick, sitting in my car(which is some sort of hawaiian VW bug type car with a fold down top) with her friend who is also a very attractive rockabilly chick. As i am talking to her the gary look alike walks off for some reason and dissapears and rob and becca show up again, and the girls turn out to be old friends of rob's. Apparently at this point we are all in the car talking and drinking i must have gotten extremely blitzd because the next thing i know we are driving somewhere, and i was in the drivers seat the whole time. when i realize this i ask them if i have been driving the whole time and rockabilly chick number one says "oh great" but the other one says "no its ok we're going to my place in seatle" (which ends up alot like orange county california) Apparently we continued to drink or something because i black out again and wake up at a very large house (by the beach/forrest???) which we apparently live at, but i am alone. i head outside to see what the hell happend and they all pull up with the top down (the two chicks have two dudes with them now). they say somthing to the effect of sorry and head inside. The car is covered with margaritas and tiny jim beam bottles and i guess that was the end. Throughout the dream i had another adventure involving some kinda school, but i dont remember that one at all. and now it is 12:30, and i can't sleep because my room is a fucking furnace for some reason.

what the hell.

Some are dead...

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 09:10:18 GMT

So i invented a new catch phrase moments ago. When someone is so wishy washy about a certain thing, such as their dislike of movies, you say they are banging the neighbor. They arent just sitting on the fence, they are BANGING THE NEIGHBOR! woo i gots three days off next week in a row, and after that its my BIRTHDAY. thats right bitches, nibbler gonna be 19, thats ONE-NINE, NINETEEN!! wooo still not old enough to drink(haha right.) and already smoking myself into the grave.

And one more thing....

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 08:13:34 GMT

MY PRINTER WORKS AGAIN!!!!

VICTORY!!

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 08:12:33 GMT

I beat the hellblazer video game today, and man was it sweet. The ending was shite, but the game itself was solid. and in the game he doesnt quit smoking, so stick that in your pipe and...err..smoke it.

GIRLS!!!!

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 08:25:04 GMT

So there is this really awsome girl that i know. In highschool her friend tried to set us up on a blind date, but i didnt like her at the time. the more i saw her the better she looked, and the more i was kicking myself for not going for it. Now I've been talking to her a little through myspace, and she is going to go to the reverend horton heat concert with us. BUT that isnt untill december. I told her we should hang out sometime, and she said when she wasnt working or studying, she would give me a call. But as everyone knows waiting sucks. I have pretty much ZERO experience when it comes to the whole dating thing, since i've had pretty fucked up encounters in the past. I need a way to get her to hang out with me, but i have no clue how to go about it. Any advice?

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 09:35:27 GMT

Well we finished watching the first season of house, and i'm not sure i've seen a medical show i've liked more. The season finale was kinda anti-climactic, but the rest of the season more than makes up for it. Tommorow is my day off and i have nothing to do at all. I'd rather be working than to sit at home bored all day.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 04:51:36 GMT

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I got a scar on my chin when i head but da pool deck!

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Superheroes, James Dean, Johnny Cash, and sexy Audrey Hepburn.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Like somthing i need to replace.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Psychobilly, Rockobilly, Classic rock, and now godammed country.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
about 10pm

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
A girlfriend

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
Sleeping in class.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
My Switchblade.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Foaming Hand Soap. Women.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Nope.

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW:
I would take all of you assholes with me.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Myself

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
the kind that makes me smell good.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Shoulder Length or 50's style.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
I hope i never get proposed to.

16: DO YOU LIKE PORN?
It's allright i guess. Kinda like playing DDR by yourself.

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I think Rob.

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Jibbah Jabbah.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)
A Lighter that said Fuck Communism, and "tubby pants" on it. Not sure if i love it or hate it.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Yup

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Don't fuck them over.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
7

31. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?
Redheads With Black at a close second.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
Work

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Women, including rob.

34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
i think so.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Watching Lifetime and smoking.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I would get a Giganormous chinplant.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? Cuz i needed to post somthing.

42. what do you like on ur pizza?
Pepperoni and green peppers.

43. what would U DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Make Bathtub Gin

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Tales from the Crypt season 2

45. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF IT SUDDENLY STARTED RAINING BLOOD?
Put on some danzig

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yeah

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Havent seen any.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
The middle one.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
awhile ago.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
It's Ok

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Mustard

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Hating People i don't know.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
The two copies of Eminem i somehow acquired.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I don't know, i'm kinda an asshole.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Yeah

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Not if your handsome like me!

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Smoking alot.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
The Store.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Nope.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Transformers and legos.

61. WHAT CLASS IN SCHOOL DO YOU THINK IS TOTALLY USELESS? Science.

62. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
Yup.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
All the time.

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Yeah, it sucked.

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Bitchy-ness

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Nibbler

67. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I have, sorta

68. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
I gotta boots don't slip off easily.

69. DO YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE STRONG POINTS?
Probably, somewhere in there.

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cookies and cream.

71. What is your shoe size?
11?

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Blue and Black

73.HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
I have three in my bathroom cabinet.

74. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Alex

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
LAME!

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Lifetime

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Carlos o'brians

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mom's yo

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
BOOBS, then butt, then face.

80. DO YOU LOVE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS?
MADLY! LIKE WILDFIRE! and the burger king commercials.

81. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
HORNY but happy.

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
GIN

83. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
GIN

84.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
THE KIND YOU WATCH

85. HAIR COLOR?
Black, but really brown

86. EYE COLOR?
For the third time BLACK AS SIN!

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Glasses are for gays. I wear contacts.

88. SIBLINGS?
UNO

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
ROCKTOBER!

90. FAVORITE FOOD?
BREAD!

91. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Kiss of a Killer. woo go lifetime...

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
TOMMOROW!

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
PROBABLY. never have.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
WINTER

95. HUGS OR KISSES?
kisses

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
both are equally good.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
me

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
you

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
LOTS

100. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Japanese symbols

101. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
connect four

102. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
TNA

103. WHO WERE YOU WITH LAST NIGHT?
my roomates

104. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
What now.