Nibbler

Looks like this is going to be a quarterly thing. Monica is done. Michele is my lovely lady. She is one of the best things to ever happen to me. Lately has been pretty sketchy. Working a shit ton because the Duke of New York is now in New York for the con. pretty neat gig. Been surprisingly active, i seem to go on cleaning surges, but only on my days off. Not really much to write. hense Blech.

I havent updated this thing in a while. It's really cool to go through and read all my old posts. very nostalgic. Well there is a lot to tell so i better get started. I got promoted to the Assistant Manager of The Metro Mega store and it seems to be going well. A little rocky at first, but i think we got everything sorted out. There has been alot of drama lately but it is all stupid shit that wont matter in a month anyway. I started hanging out with monica again because i thought she was interested in me, but right now i am not so sure. I like her alot, but i can't shake this feeling that she's lost interest all ready. We are soo different, but we share the same ideas on alot of subjects, and get along great. Our personalities are pretty similar, but i don't think i am comfortable enough to just be myself fully yet. I just wish i knew one way or the other how she felt about me, so i would know what to do about it all. I really want things to work out, but it is all so confusing. We moved into a new apartment that is absolutely Boss. I need to get frames for my posters so i have somthing to look at while i am doing nothing. thats all i can think of right now. g'night.

I think the worst possible thing you could do in life is doubt. I will always regret not doing somthing because i was afraid of one possible outcome. You never know what greatness can come out of somthing untill you try it. You can't put off doing somthing even if it may turn out bad, because eventually that opportunity will dissappear foreverand you will always say what if. If you always try for what you want then down the line you can't say you wished you would have done that. life is too short to put anything off untill tommorow.

So get out there and chase those dreams you crazy kids. And don't forget, jesus loves you, he's just not IN love with you.

Long days, and even longer nights. Can't get it outta my head. Zombies and Girls, and problems with problems. Waking up in a room to find your locked inside. Almost metaphorical. almost. Silent Hill 4 is insane. Big love gets better and better. Need to relax, take a break, figure out where i'm going before i get there. Good advice for any occasion. Wish some people were still here, old school friends from back in the day. Easier times, when all that mattered was fun. Skating till dawn, sleeping till noon, rinse and repeat. Napkin holders from Peter Piper, tightening trucks at the shop down the street, Building sketchy ramps on the drive way, scraped knees and broken boards.

isnt it nice to know people are just waiting for you to fuck up.

Good night Moon, good night stars, good night christopher walken.

My life is spiralling downward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance and suffocate me dry concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like; Stab my heart because i love you and, rip apart my soul, and of course, stabby mcstab stab. And it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing, like that guy from that band can do. my life is just a black abyss, it's soo dark, and its suffocating me, grabbing ahold of me and tightening it's grip. tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans, which look great on me by the way. my parents just don't get me, they think i'm gay.
I don't know diary, sometimes i think your the only one who gets me, you're my best friend.

So how many times do you have to pretend somthing is funny, and laugh it off, even if it makes you mad, before you can "Take a joke"? How many times before it changes from ribbing to Disrespecting? How many times do you have to get pissed off, before they realize you don't think it's funny, and that it really isn't somthing they should do? what does it take to make someone realize there are just certain subjects that they shouldn't talk about? Oh yeah, and in case your wondering, No, this isn't what i have been pissed about.

what is it about george thorogood, that just makes me feel good. I went to zia to try and cheer myself up, and i actually remmebered all the cds i was looking for, and they actually had a few that they didnt a week ago. so i spent some dollars for some good tunes. Grabbed some billy idol greatest hits, GT greatest hits, suicide machines, the millencolin cd i have a burnt copy of but is all scratched, and The Meteors Live. they didnt have batmobile, or an actual Meteors albumn, or a copy of living end, but i don't really expect to find those there. time to clean some shit up, and read some comics.

i think i posted this once before, but now alas it must happen again. Way to go man, way to go. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH its almost too good to be true. sometimes life is just too sweet.

well, this year is finally almost over, and bittersweet it is. Alot of crazy shit has happened. Things i am happy for and things i regret. But all i can say is that i am happy to have spent this year with my friends. This next year is going to be hard, but i know that no matter what happends it will all work out in the end, it always does. For as many mopey depressing posts i have made this year, i have made just as many good ones. This is to 2005, for being one of the best (and worst) years of my life, and also to 2006, here we go again.

This place is driving me insane. Accidentally gave my nephew too much sugar, and now i think they are doing construction in the living room. I finished the first season of smallville last night. I'm glad they decided to drop the whole theme of every villain gained their powers from kryptonite somehow. The second half of the first season was especially good. found both the first and second seasons for 20 bucks at wal-mart so i got them both since the copies rob has are both scratched. I'm tired of talking to people who have nothing in common with me. Feining interest for the sake of courtesy. I think i might be a terrible person but it will take further investigation to come to a solid conclusion. i am going to go jump beneath a train now.

strange couple of days.I got my new phone and it is the coolest thing i've ever gotten. Talked to a few people that i really missed, sat outside smoking and thinking alot about damn near everything. Things that i never had time to think about before, but now all i have is time. Time is a dangerous thing to have when you've got a mind like mine. Had a very akward wake up call this morning, and it reminded me of the thing i probably miss the most back home. five more days of mind numbing boridity (probably not a word, but i like it anyways so fuck off). Why is life so damn akward? Why do things somehow find a way to make you feel like you never should have left home this morning? I've got so many things to do when i get home, i dont know how i am going to find time for all of it.im dreading the open to close shifts that i know i'm going to have, although it will be nice to be back on a schedule. I realized recently that i have quite a few decisions to make soon, and i really wish i didnt, but tough choices are what life is all about, YOU taught me that. I just wish i had some of that hindsight everyone is always talking about, maybe wal-mart carries it, they have just about everything else. Except the kitchen sink of course.

BARF! oh man, i am stuffed like the turkey we slaughtered. WOO. Good food, funny hillbillies and all the beer i could drink. Hell yeah. All in all pretty good day. Still wish i was coming home this weekend, i miss my friends more than i thought i ever would. i am bored out of my mind. i missed new comic book day which really makes me down, but hopefully i will get to go to the real comic shop here tommorow and get some good deals. The other one i went to was an antiques store with a small comic section. They had some new comics, and alot of old back issues, so it wasnt all bad, and the guy gave me less than cover price on the new books and gave me the New X-Men HC for 15 bucks! i still can't wait to be back home.

just woke up here, havent slept since friday night. The plane ride sucked because i had to sit next to weird people, and my dvd player's battery died on the second plane. I read The Watchmen for a really long time, but i only seem to be less than a fourth done with it, but so far so good. I wanna go do something but i dont have a car or a bike or anything like that to do so with, and walking isnt an option because we are really far from anything. There are no girls that i have seen since i got off the plane, and all i have to do is go on the intronet. more update later.

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend(s): Girl Pants White Belt
First Screen Name: fnupmychistmas
First Pet: Licorice, small black curly haired dog
First Piercing: left ear
First Crush: Zoe
First CD: The Offspring
First Car: 2003 Ford Ranger
First Love: Me!
First Stuffed Animal: My Clown Teddy, from when i was born

NINE LASTS
Last Alchoholic Beverage: Shots of Beer
Car Ride: hours ago home from mesa
Last Movie Seen: History of Violence
Last Phone Call: John
Last CD Played: Dirt Bike Annie
Last Bubble Bath: HAHAHAHA
Last Time You Cried: when i lost rosebud

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
Have you ever been arrested: not yet anyway
Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
Have you ever been on TV: no
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yes
Have you ever cheated: No
Have you ever spent more than 5 hours online: yea
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep: yeah

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. underoos
2. Under shirt
3. Tiger Army Shirt
4. eyebrow ring
5. my handsome smile!
6.
7.

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. Got 5 hours sleep
2. went to sleep drunk
3. showered at jeffs house
4. worked at mesa
5. Rocked the Casba
6. smoked a million cigarettes

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. Smoking
2. Cool Girls
3. Friends
4. Drinking
5. tales from the crypt

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL [ALMOST] ANYTHING TO
1. Girl Pants
2. Becca
3. My sis
4. Rob

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold.
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: canilla

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Meet a girl i like
2. Fly a plane


ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. taking this quiz

damn im exhausted. Saturday after work pants came over and we went to hooters and made fun of all the trashy people, and ate bad sandwitches. then iva gave me beer for my birthday and i drank it until jeff daniel and brent arrived. I ate some cake and ice cream with a knife because as fiasco exclaimed if i can't do that on my birthday then fuck america (he didnt actually say fuck america, but i know thats what he meant.) Then we headed over to a party way the fuck out in scottsdale. I got to meet most of jeff's karaoke buddies and do beer shots all night. Met his friend alex who makes some of the best drinks i've ever had that contain cranberry juice. Alex told me a bunch about the kind of music she likes, and alot of it is pretty good, girl pants and her would get along great. crazy drunk girls were yelling all night, while the aristocracy smoked out side and conversed about movie stars, sexual experiences, and the effects of drugs on the brain. all in all it was a pretty fuckin good birthday. And i didnt even throw up.

1.What did you do last night?
Slept

2. Who was the last person you called?
The Duke

3. What does the 5th text on your phone say?
@i'm still you're papi!

4. When was the last time you thought about sex?
about a half hour ago, and just now.

5. When was the last time you got hurt?
The duke kicked me in the shins

6. When was the last time you cried?
don't remember

7. When was the last time you lost something?
I lost my switchblade

8. What are you listening to right now?
93.3 shitty guitar rock station

9. Why did your last relationship end?
Trust

10. What bothers you the most about the opposite sex?
They are catty and devious

11. Where & when was the best date you've ever been on?
Havent been on a good date yet. they all pretty much ended with me getting lost on some other side of town, or the girl was boring.


13. Do you date more than one person at once?
Nope.

14. What was the last movie you watched?
haha, street fighter.

15. What was the last t.v show?
Lost

16. What do you want for your b-day?
Tales From the Crypt Season 2

17. What are you doing tonight?
probably sleeping again. or maybe i will get piss drunk cuz i got three days off and a half full bottle of gin just callin my name.

18. When will be the next vacation?
who the hell knows. i dont take vacations

19. How do you feel right now?
tired, hungry.

Came home exhausted today per usual. I don't know if it is lack of sleep, or the fact that i havent been eating more than once a day, or probably both. cleaned my room a little then went to sleep at about 9:30. but the weirdest part was the dreams i had. a few cool dreams about girls i like, lol. And then one really fucked up one where me rob and becca went to some show, and i ended up hanging out with some dude that looked like gary bucey but not, and some other guy i cant remember, we ended up walking around this huge movie theater with about 100 different screens, that i always dream about, except that it wasnt showing any movies, so it felt more like a casino, or i guess a comic convention, but i've never been so i wouldnt know. Any way, me and these guys are walking around aimlessly drinking the whole time mind you, and at one point i end up going with the gary bucey one to meet his girlfriend, who turns out to be this really hot rockabilly chick, sitting in my car(which is some sort of hawaiian VW bug type car with a fold down top) with her friend who is also a very attractive rockabilly chick. As i am talking to her the gary look alike walks off for some reason and dissapears and rob and becca show up again, and the girls turn out to be old friends of rob's. Apparently at this point we are all in the car talking and drinking i must have gotten extremely blitzd because the next thing i know we are driving somewhere, and i was in the drivers seat the whole time. when i realize this i ask them if i have been driving the whole time and rockabilly chick number one says "oh great" but the other one says "no its ok we're going to my place in seatle" (which ends up alot like orange county california) Apparently we continued to drink or something because i black out again and wake up at a very large house (by the beach/forrest???) which we apparently live at, but i am alone. i head outside to see what the hell happend and they all pull up with the top down (the two chicks have two dudes with them now). they say somthing to the effect of sorry and head inside. The car is covered with margaritas and tiny jim beam bottles and i guess that was the end. Throughout the dream i had another adventure involving some kinda school, but i dont remember that one at all. and now it is 12:30, and i can't sleep because my room is a fucking furnace for some reason.

what the hell.

So i invented a new catch phrase moments ago. When someone is so wishy washy about a certain thing, such as their dislike of movies, you say they are banging the neighbor. They arent just sitting on the fence, they are BANGING THE NEIGHBOR! woo i gots three days off next week in a row, and after that its my BIRTHDAY. thats right bitches, nibbler gonna be 19, thats ONE-NINE, NINETEEN!! wooo still not old enough to drink(haha right.) and already smoking myself into the grave.